my personal space...

2009-09-22T16:21:00.000+08:00

finally i post once again...

this blog is officially dead..

might wanna start a new blog soon..

if so, will let u ppl know.. ;)

2008-05-08T16:03:00.006+08:00

Welcome to Taipei!

This is taken in 小人国, one of the tourist attraction in Taiwan. Everything here are like so small and you will feel like a giant when you are here. Haha.

Me and my bed buddy, Ah Ni.

紫禁城

长城
7/8 band of brothers..kah chun where u?
lol
kokie, kahchun and me
clement being a retard hereNightlife of 西門町

陽明山國家公園
the gang with the tour guide
a long way to go...Jay Chou's shop

阿宗面线
豪大大鸡排 & 珍珠奶茶 (something u mustn't miss out on in Taiwan)
Home sweet home.. 3 days of R & R for a place like Taipei is never gonna be enough. If given a chance, I will still wanna come back again. Eat till you rot, shop till you drop.

2008-05-08T15:51:00.002+08:00

KaiPng and Me

Yours Truly.. haha

2008-05-08T15:34:00.002+08:00

Hey people..Yours truly is back once again to bring you some good news! Haha.. I just passed out as a 3rd Sergeant in the Armour Training Institute. 22wks of long training locally and overseas isn't that easy. But i made a lot of good friends throughout this long time. This is the longest specialist course in the SAF and I'm glad that I've made it through. Right from the start, i didn't wanted to say or rather I should say that I wanted to get myself downgraded and land myself in some easier job in the SAF, which means "chao keng". I just wanted to give up on this 3rd Sergeant stripes. But I failed to do it mainly because my bunkmates pushed me on to go through it together as one united section and all to pass out together as Armour Specialists.

22 weeks have gone, 10 out of the 11 of us made it through, one of us failed the course and one managed to downgrade himself after we passed out. Fortunately, as for me and my band of brothers of the section, we are still fighting strong as healthy 3rd Sergeants. But for most of us, I guess we are not as fit as we were once due to the slackness towards the end of course. Haha.. I'm posted to my new unit, 41st Singapore Armour Regiment as a Vehicle Commander, with some of my brothers.

Today is my last day of block leave, and I'm going to report to my new unit tomorrow, taking 2nd year soldiers as my men. I've heard plenty of rumours about 41 SAR for being the hell of Armour as it will be very siong, something like 10km route march and reverse SOC specially for the newly specialists who just posted there. But no choice, I still gonna face it as it comes along. I really hope physically I can manage to do it as well as mentally. Okay guys thats all for today, catch up with you guys soon. =)

2008-04-27T16:57:00.003+08:00

hello ppl.. its been such a long time since i last updated.. well everything is fine and i'm going to pass out in this coming week as a 3rd Sergeant in the Armour family... I just came back from overseas training and the R & R was fantastic..Did shopping and eating like crazy.. Haha.. ok i shall blog about the details some other time..

2008-01-20T17:15:00.000+08:00

hi everyone... its been such a long time ever since i last updated the blog. Sorry guys..ns has taken away so much of my time. From the last entry, i talked about me graduating from BMT to SISPEC. Currently I'm going through the longest specialist course in SAF, which is Armoured Infantry Section Commander Course... It will take me 21 weeks for this course. I would consider this course is the most unlucky course that anyone would ever wanna get in. It is super "shiong" and tiring. This course is separated into 2 sub-courses. I'm under the Bionix Course. Bionix is the name of the vehicle that I'm trained in. But I'm not going to go into details.

Well, I prayed that this year 2008 is gonna be the best year yet after a dreaded 2007. But I still wanna thank God for 2007, a quite "eventful" year for me though. Looking back of the blessings I got, from PSP to clothes to Itouch, its quite a number eh. God has been faithful to me and I prayed that God will continue to pour forth His blessings to everyone as well. Personally, i think i have achieve some goals for myself, like losing weight and improving my closet. Now, E361 has grown bigger in the sense that now Kenneth's cg is under CJ's care, and it's been such a long time ever since I attended cg due to ns, and I'm kinda missing the feeling. Hope that I can squeeze some time to go for cg in these coming weeks. Okay, thats all for now guys, take care and have a wonderful 2008 ahead. See you guys around. =)

2007-10-14T16:17:00.000+08:00

hello people... i am back...after a long long time.. after i finish my BMT, i am posted to SISPEC to be trained as a corporal then go for another course which is dependent on the vocation i will be posted at the end of this current course, to become a sergeant. Life isn't good in SISPEC as compared to BMT. Schedule is packed from before the sun rises until the sun set. Physically, i am tired..mentally, i am worn out. But still, God is my strength and i believe He will keep me going till it is over. This week onwards till Deepavali, my training is going to be more intensive. 3 Field camps and more outfields are coming up. I am going to spend my days in the jungle and i will be going back to Tekong for my last field camp. To be honest, there are times when i really want to give up, life is so different from the obese BMT to a specialist training course. There are not enough of rest... I realized that after i get into SISPEC, my temper gets heated up easily, probably due to lack of rest and sleep.. haha.. 3 weeks has gone, and i have 7 weeks more to go.. 30th Nov is what i am looking forward to. Guys, i need your prayers... It is really going to be tougher as time goes by. I shall end my entry here. Good day.. take care friends... see you guys soon. =)

2007-09-02T14:21:00.000+08:00

hi friends...i am back after a long long time... haha.. 19th Sept is my P.O.P.. time flies, isn't it? but when i am in camp, time don't really flies. but thats not the point... i am going towards the end of my first phase of ns life and have been wondering where am i heading towards in the next phase? SISPEC, OCS or any other unit? A sergeant told me that i did quite well for my SIT test(which is one of the criteria for SISPEC or OCS), and i should "chiong" for my IPPT in order to qualify myself for command school. I told this news to some of my friends... some came with encouraging words asking me to persevere to aim for the high, while some does not have a very encouraging remarks. but anyway it is not up to me to decide where i am going to. I was just listing some pros and cons for going to a command school or a "relax" 8 to 5 unit.. a command school will burn my personal time away, more tough trainings, more outfields, but i get more money and pride maybe? and probably a easier life in the later part of ns... a "relax" 8 to 5 unit like driver etc, will give me more time which can be used for furthering my drums and studies, probably a free driving license? but a mundane life for the next 2 years and lesser money of course... its kinda confusing for me, but whatever it is, i will just do my best in everything i have to do and see where God leads me to. praise God for command school or even a relax unit, i will take everything easy and lets wait and see... i don't deny that i have this little desire to go for command school, but at the same time, i also kinda feel lethargic in those "chiong swa" days..perhaps an easy way out in ns is good? or an adventurous life is better? i am still unsure.. 22nd Sept is my posting, and 24th Sept will be my new unit reporting day.. tmr is my IPPT and tues is my 24km route march... pls pray for me my friends... take care and see u guys soon.. i will blog again when i have the time...haha =)

2007-07-29T14:29:00.000+08:00

hoho!! i am going to POP on 19th Sept... time flies.. i am in army for almost 2 months.. i am slowly getting used to the feeling of losing freedom.. everytime i long for book out, and dread for book in..but time seems to fly super fast especially when u're outside enjoying some pathetic freedom.. haha.. but one thing good about NS is that it is a good chance for me to shed some weight and indeed i lost 11kg ever since i first enlisted and more to come in these coming weeks. Fully-packed weeks are drawing closer..SIT test, route marches, grenade throwing, IPPT etc etc.. So far, i have completed most of the main event in BMT like, live range, field camp, urban op etc etc.. Life is getting bored each day in tekong... but still life still has to go on.. just hang on and move on.. Thank God for the creation of PSP.. i just bought my precious yesterday.. haha..its white, its sleek, its sexy, its my friend.. lol.. see you guys soon..booking in later.. =(

2007-07-01T15:43:00.000+08:00

hey i am back!!! but i am leaving soon in a few hours time.. -_- i will be having field camp from 7th June to 11th June.. life is not going to be easy i guess.. pray for me my friends.. haha.. i will be running around in the stupid jungle being a Tarzan for 5 days. But i am glad that i am already losing some weight and trying to lose even more.. haha..take care my friends..brothers, enjoy ur time here on the sacred land before u are sent to the God-forsaken land.. lol.. Life would be much better without NS... Sisters, all of you should thank God that you girls do not need to serve the nation. I am one of the Sons of Singapore but I dun enjoy being one =( See you guys...Don't miss me.. haha..

2007-06-22T22:14:00.001+08:00

hey! I'm back~! Its such a looooooong time that I've been away... I guess many of you miss me right? haha.. Tiring is the word to describe Basic Military Training (BMT). Life as a soldier is not as fun as u watched the Rambo. Before you can fight like a Rambo, you have to go through all the crap that one could ever imagine. Confinement week is well...fine...difficulty is gradually increasing. Lights out at 2230, Reveille at 0530... total crappy timing but that is the REGIMENTATION of SAF... i hate this word REGIMENTATION... next week onwards, it will be the "tekan-ing session". But thank God my section are full of nonsense ppl just like me. So with these guys around, life sort of goes by a little easier. Throughout these 15 days of confinement, I'm glad to shed some weight away, and I guess, with the "tekan-ing session" coming up, don't want to lose weight also hard. The food in there is like so AWESOME. Everyday feed you with chicken, meals after meals, from chicken drumsticks to chicken wings to chicken drumsticks again. The sight of chicken turns me off. Who on earth fries vegetable till yellowish? SAF does, surprisingly. Everyday I go to the cookhouse, and tell the uncle, "Pls give me less of each item, and more fruits." Its not that I don't want to eat, but its that I don't find it edible...haha..perhaps I'm too fussy when comes to food. Well, thats all for now, i need some rest. catch up with you guys again. =)

BMT is not what you left behind, but what you gain ahead. Sadly, I still can't see it yet.

2007-06-07T00:33:00.000+08:00

In a few hours' time, I'm going to be away..on a mission trip... to Tekong -_- Thanks everyone for your well wishes and prayers... Thanks CJ, Ivan, Alvin and Rachel for the prayer conference.

Quoted from Harvest Times, "To Joshua, who had fill Moses' very big shoes as the leader of Israel, God constantly reiterated, "No man shall be able to stand before you all the days of your life as I was with Moses, so I will be with you. I will not leave you nor forsake you.. Have I not commanded you? Be strong and of good courage; do not be afraid, nor be dismayed, for the Lord your God is with you wherever you go."

As I was reading the Harvest Times, the quote above really assured me that if God is for me, who can be against me? NS is really a time I have to depend on God and not on myself. God is strength... I will emerge as a stronger person after NS... Amen.. haha..

Take care my friends... drop me an sms when u free... haha.. Keep me in ur prayers... Thanks.. ^_^

2007-05-24T00:23:00.000+08:00

Woohoo!!! I'm back!!! I have been MIA for 1 month plus from my blog..I'm sure all my "fans" are looking forward to read my entry arh? LOL.. For the past 1 month, many things happen, some good, some bad. Many times, I want to blog, but i don't know what to blog and probably I've lost my passion in blogging. Somethings are not meant to be broadcasted or should I say, things that are supposed to be broadcasted but have to be broadcasted to the right people? Haha.. Nvm..

Day by day, I'm one step closer to NS... it makes me afraid, anxious and probably excited? It is gonna be a totally new, foreign place with many strangers. Life is going to be so full of discipline and no freedom. I am someone who can't live without freedom, I really wonder what will I become? It's like locking a wild monkey in a cage...or should I say a King Kong in a cage? LOL.. But one thing I'm sure is that I'm going to shed some weight. I believe I will save a lot of money on hair wax and haircuts for these 2 years.

People, do pray for me..
My enlistment date is 7th June 2007, 1pm BMT School 1, anyone interested to send me in, let me know.. =)

EMERGE IS COMING!!! SO IS NS.. -__-||

2007-04-20T13:11:00.000+08:00

my new hairstyle

the backview

I had a new hair cut yesterday, some said new look, some said not nice, some said ah beng, one said very nice. But its ok.. its my hair.. haha.. Not everyone have the anointing to appreciate this kind of hairdo.. haha =P

2007-04-17T15:46:00.000+08:00

i am back..after 7 days of MIA-ing.. have been very busy over the weekends.. Benny Hinn Svc was fantastic..serving the choir for 3 consecutive days can be very taxing. But overall its very awesome. It feels very good to see many ppl get saved and healed, seeing God doing His powers and ministering to ppl in many ways... These 3 days of Benny Hinn are really good. Presence of God fills the entire indoor stadium... Don't be jealous.. Join the choir if u want a stronger anointing =P

Looking at how the Chinese from China going all the way for God really touches my heart. It really makes me wonder.. Why is it that people who don't get the privilege to serve the Lord really yearns for more of Him? and some people get the chance to attend church week in week out don't cherish it? Is it really what u get it easily u won't cherish it? and things that are hard to come by, u hold on strongly to it? Think about it... i think i am not like that and i don't hope to be one.. haha..

2007-04-10T21:58:00.000+08:00

oh well...i am back once again.. haha...last night went to celebrate Linette's birthday with CJ, Joyce, Rui, Laura, Su and Cherlyn.. i guess she must be touched man.. haha.. the son here went all the way to Parkway as instructed by Joyce to get a "dunno wad" cake which was sold out -_- and ended up with a chocolate truffle cake... oh well.. haha..filial piety is parts and parcels of my life.. haha! after that we had some chat and laugh like mad as usual.. haha..

well, today Linette fell sick..oh man..so sick -_-!! As the 'son', what else can i do? be filial loh.. haha! accompanied her to doctor and went to get things from Tampines Mall. Joyce kept calling me to stand in the gap for her.. Joyce, you must understand, it's not that i doesn't want to stand in the gap for you, i really wanted to..but still..let the noble job be upon your shoulders.. haha! After that, I'm back home again.. haha.. Short day...Uncle Benny is coming over this weekend..lets prepare to see Uncle Benny performs miracles with the power of God.. =)

don't worry, Joyce.. you will walk out of your valley soon.. haha! =X

2007-04-08T22:10:00.000+08:00

Me and Margaret (ex cgl)

I think i like huifang's specs..haha

King David and Goliath..

Laura and me..i think her mouth cramped

F4? LoL

For the last time she is gonna feel so secured with us around...

Denny and me..oh well, he seems reluctant, but who cares.. haha

Huiying and me, its not that i dun smile, i don't know how to... =)

Me and Joyce, the nurse-to-be

Raisa and me

Raisa, Joyce, Me and Jin Min

Me and Elizabeth (bird)..i think her fingers cramped..

Sylvie and me, her face cramped too.. haha =x

Finally, Easter is over!!! Tired.. went for 4 services over 3 days out of the 5 services.. physically very tired..the drama i watched until i can even memorize the dialogue.. but overall, its good.. seeing ppl saved and rededicate their lives is very heartwarming. We must also play a part to integrate them into the cg and church. 50,000 doesn't seem too hard eh.. haha

Yesterday, fellowshipped at hall 7 after the service, celebrated Pastor's birthday and went to send Olivia off at the airport. 5 years in Aust, I guess the cg will miss her a lot... her dramatic movements, her constant bickering with me etc..

Today after the service, Nette, Joyce and me went to eat KFC AGAIN! -___- i am sure i am gonna quit KFC for some time. Came home after that..catch some sleep..my eyes were like swollen and could hardly open for the whole morning. After catching some sleep..it really feels much better.. haha..

Verses of the day: James 1:2-4 "My brethren, count it all joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience. But let patience have its perfect work, that you may be perfect
and complete, lacking nothing."

Happy Birthday Josh Happy Birthday Linette!

2007-04-05T00:14:00.000+08:00

Today woke up super early today, met Alvin and Vincent at Tanjung Pagar to go for an interview. I think there were some miscommunication between Alvin and Meiyi..but well its ok.. Interview went on quite ok..OK only la.. haha..

After that met up with Joyce at Singapore Chinese Orchestra Conference Hall, to support Sylvie for the SYF... Silver..good or bad? as long as try ur best should be fine.. =) then went down to NYP with Joyce to take "dunno what seems useless to me" planner book. But well, anyway its ok.. Then we went to Suntec to meet Nette.

Guess what we eat again? KFC -__- I'm sure u are not surprised, me either! Sooner or later, I'm gonna behave like a chicken after eating so many of their breed over this 2 weeks. My goodness! It doesn't mean that when we have the discount coupons, we gotta use them all! LoL.. Nvm..What is eaten has already been eaten. No point crying over spilled milk. I just have to burn extra more fats. Thanks -_-

After that, Joyce went to meet Pastor Eileen...woooo! so cool! I also wanna meet. Haha. While waiting for her, the mother and son slacked at the KFC. And we started reaching out via smsing.
When Joyce was done, we decided to buy Starbucks Coffee for Pastor Aries. Though, I'm not left with much money, but still, nvm..I will trust in the Lord to bless me as I honoured the man of God. And right after we left the office, i received a sms from a friend asking for my acct number to bless me.. I was really shocked. I didn't know that God is so efficient. Haha. Really thank God and my friend. Haha.

Then, we made our way to chill at Starbucks for almost 1-2 hrs. We continued chit chatting and reaching out, scrolling down our address books, inviting ppl to come. Let those have ears hear. I reached out to you guys, its ultimately for your own good. Ppl dun reply me, nvm, I'm fine. What more "sian" is that, I smsed a female friend, and guess what she said.. "Do u always randomly sms girls?...I'm sorry my bf don't like me go out one on one with another guy" Oh c'mon, u think I am going for a date hunting or smthg? Haha -__-

I was smsing another guy friend, happily chit chatting, until I mentioned to ask him join me this sat, immediately no replies.. thanks dude. But overall, it's ok, God is good. He gave me two friends. I hope for more to come.

When we were about to leave, we received a sms that Alice is admitted to hospital and we decided to pay her a visit. Amazing she looks healthier than the nurse there. I guess it's the glory of the Lord. Haha..I guess she gonna be warded for observation and pray that she will recover soon.. Saw Cheng Jun just now, I noticed the frustrations, stressfulness, irritations, burdensomeness on his face although he tried not to show it out. As a cell group member, I guess I ought to play my part in fulfilling my leader's dreams. That's why I'm trying hard to reach out too. Many things happen in the cell group and his gf is sicked, it must have really been hard on him. I prayed that things will turn out good for those who seek after Him. Let's play our part and have a wonderful easter weekend. =)

2007-04-04T01:24:00.000+08:00

Today i went to help Anthony to do the children's church easter props. We started like 3 plus and do all the way till almost 9. We did it at B2 of the JW premises. I thought there were gonna be children's church ministry helpers to come and do, end up only 2 of us. Its so hot and stuffy. Thank God i brought an extra shirt. Tired yet fruitful. We chatted, did work together. We made the background for the drama. And like what Anthony told me, the helpers made a huge easter egg which looks like a rock. Haha. Overall, a good time today, get to know him better, and drive around the island too. Haha.

Once upon a time, there was a guy and a girl. They love each other and wanted to get married. But he couldn't marry her because he has to go to war. During the 2 years of war, he did not stop contacting her. He wrote her letters after letters, day by day. Finally after the war, he came back! First thing he did was to go and find her. But sadly, he realized that she was married. Who did she marry to? Her husband is the postman who sends her the letter everyday for 2 years. Haha..See... this is the power of fellowship. Bondings are formed when there are fellowships. Be it friendship or any relationships.

That's the story Anthony told me about the importance of Children's Church visitation.

=)

2007-04-02T00:33:00.000+08:00

Today i woke up late! LoL.. the Zzz monster don't allow me to leave, my bed was calling out to me..CJ called me at 940am, "You still sleeping? are u coming?", i replied "Yes, i am rushing over now." Haha.. rushed like mad, Crap. When i get down, hoping to grab a cab, and my goodness, why are there so many ppl taking cabs on Sunday morning, crazy isn't it? They can have all the time in the world to slp and why are they there to fight for cabs with me at the time when i needed it badly? a bus came i hopped on and alighted 1 stop later to get a better spot for cab. There are ppl waiting also! Irritating, while waiting for my turn, it starts to rain... there goes my hair... haiz... managed to reach at 1015am. Haha. Pastor Mark preached a good word today. Much better than Sat's i feel. How to grow as a Christian? After service, we went to eat lunch. Then i have quite a good chat with Huiying while waiting for her boyfriend and my buddy. We talked about alot of stuff. Haha. After that went to catch up with my buddies as usual. Haha. Had dinner, crapped and fellowship. Ben is more closer to us now i guess... haha.. we talked about stupid stuff and make fun of stupid things. Kinda funny.. sometimes u just need to feed ur soul in a stupid way though. haha! I realized i have so many good brothers around. Haha. you know who you are. Might not meet often, but when meet up, we always had a lot of fun. Haha. Good la, let me enjoy fellowship now, otherwise i have to go fellowship with the mosquitoes in Tekong. It is a mission trip for me. Holding guns, playing hide and seek around in the forest, preaching to the mosquitoes, what a mission trip.. I just share the sermon which Pastor Mark preached today with my friend who did not manage to go for service today. Great! i hope my friend receive a revelation from God. =) Haha. I shared the word of God with ppl. That's what we are called to do. Ok, thats all for today folks. Have a good week ahead.

Good Night~

2007-04-01T00:56:00.000+08:00

This is the intimate photo i mentioned a couple of days ago, Me and Andy, and some nonsense fingers sticking out there..I'll never pose this manner.. -_- We are just purely good brothers, not flings. =)

Oh yes, this is the candles of heart that the cg made for Olivia on the rooftop of esplanade.

Me and Ernest, we are just good brothers too..really.. I was made to do the same thing back for him and pose for another pic, but i just couldn't do it and didn't manage to get a snap of it.

Me and Linette, the "mother" that i mentioned. Taken during fellowship.

Sylvie and Me.

Look at my double eyelids, they come out when i am really tired. *yawns*
I always thought that this hairstyle would look nicer on me, but due to negative remarks by friends, i guess i have to spend some effort to style it like some pics above. But most of all, I'm glad that I've lost some weight! HoHo!

Last night, slept like 4plus? den woke up like 8plus and went to play soccer. It feels good to burn so fats away. Haha, although i vomited after exercising due to excessive water intake.

After that, rushed back, bathe, changed and rushed for BS. Discerning of Spirits, and i did practice on Huiying, partially correct, I guess i still need a lot more practice. Haha. CJ did it on me, most of it was correct and we shall not talk about it here. Haha.

Today had a simple, short yet good service with Pst Mark Conner, the ways to connect to God. I guess I'm the relational type. Haha... Friends play an important part of my life and i cherished all of my friends. Be honoured that you're one of my friends. Haha! Indeed, i prefer to do things in community rather than alone, I hate boredom and loneliness.

Ok, thats all for now. Good night!

Oh yes, my friend, Wendell complained that I did not mention something good about him in my previous entry. I shall say, Wendell, you're cool man! Haha, and he is single. ;)

2007-03-31T00:06:00.000+08:00

ok, I am here again ^_^ Today I had KFC with Linette, Joyce and Olivia again -__- due to some personal requests. KFC can be quite boring at times, eat more of it will make u more like chicken. LOL . Then we went k-boxing and they sang like crazy women, jumping around the sofa, and most important I caught it on video. Haha! Ok, shan't reveal too much. Overall, it is kinda fun too, and these girls are extremely crazy when I sing some love songs and keep making fun of me -__- funny meh? Kinda irritating, but its ok. I'll forgive them. Haha. After k-boxing, we went to walk around and waited for the rest of members to come. After that had dinner together, den we went to have a "farewell party" at esplanade's rooftop. We made a big heart with candles for our dearest Olivia, some shared touching messages to her and CJ sang her a song which happens to be one of my favourite. Haha. I wonder what kind of farewell will I get when i leave to serve the nation? Haha. If there is a fan club set up for me, it would be kinda good yeah? Haha. =X

After that on my way back with Linette, kinda shared a little of our thoughts about life and God. Short but good. You guys must understand, she may be younger than me, but she is like my mother, always nag nag nag. Haha =X but ok la. I believed we speak some sensible words to each other to encourage our walk with God.

Sometimes, its really hard to thank God, praise God when things are really going bad. I been through it, done it, even got a diploma for it, but still, I believe God is still good afterall, everything happens for a reason and its for our own good, God will not allow burdens that is too hard for us to bear. Afterall, its my character not my comfort that God wants. =)

2007-03-30T03:06:00.000+08:00

Just now went for prayer meeting, it is good to pray. Prayer is the solution to problems. =) Things happen these days and letting go of the protruding branch indeed isn't easy, but i will try... i really believe with all my heart, in due season it will come to past, its just a matter of time and patience. After the prayer meeting, managed to get a short chat with Andy, haha.. as usual, we had an "intimate upclose photo" which i shall show soon. We are just pure friends, no string attached, and most important of all we are straights.

Watched Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles on Monday with Alvin, JOL and her fiance, kinda weird, Alvin and I sat apart from both of them during the movie. We don't want to be a light that shines in this area though. Haha. Went to Sakae Sushi with my buddies last night, a good meal with quality fellowship and jokes, and Wendell can really eat, and i mean he can really eat. haha! Its really that kind of friends u have around in church to keep u running the race. There are many more of them which i have yet to spend some time with them, will do so before i go for NS, if not for sure i guess they will miss me badly somehow or rather i hope. Haha.

I need to get a haircut soon, getting long, hard to spike, hard to style, and it will be my last "professional haircut" for this coming 2 years. I must get a hairstyle that is memorable and leaves a good impression to ppl before I go in. Definitely not a chicken hairdo.

Goodnight.

2007-03-29T16:40:00.000+08:00

There was once a man who fell off the side of a cliff and as he sailed through the air somehow managed to grasp a protruding branch. He looked up and there was no way to climb the hundred or so feet back. He looked down a thousand feet and could see no way there either.

He thought, "I guess this is a good time to talk to God."

He called, "Is there anyone up there?"

A voice returned, "Yes."

"Are you God?"

The voice replied, "Yes."

"Can you help me?" the man asked.

"Yes," came the reply.

"Well, what happens now?", the desperate man asked.

"Firstly, do you trust me?", God asked.

"Yes, sure", said the man.

God answered, "let go of the branch."

The man looked up into the heavens and shouted, "Anyone else up there?"

*Above illustration is quoted from the book "Faith" by Dr Phil Pringle.

After I read this, I realized I am in a situation like that guy in the illustration. I am at a point after holding or letting go of the branch. To me, this is really a great test, and the thoughts of failing this test has haunted me for a period of time. Sometimes, it come to a point where I asked God, "Why do You always pick on my weakest point?", I mean if the test is not in this area of mine, I am sure I won't suffer as much.. like what I said, won't suffer as much, I guess this is the area where God wants me to change. Showing me the reward and telling me the reward is not to be claimed now is like telling a dying patient that he can be healed but not the right time.

Taking the first step of letting go of the protruding branch seems so tough for me, really hard. But I am trying to trust in Him more than the things that I see in my naked eyes. I realized I have indeed made a mistake, I sought for the gift more than the Giver at one point. I repented, I gave up struggling, I'll let God do whatever He wants me to do. Hard as it may be, I believe I can do it.

"If you don't get your mind, your mind will get you." Phil Pringle.

I'm thankful to God for everything, to make me see that I've a problem, and i need to overcome it. I believe with all my heart, I will emerge stronger and bigger than my problem. Thank God for friends and members who are always there for me, encouraging words and quality fellowships have really pushed me on.

"God looks beyond our problems to see our needs." Sy Rogers.

If it is in the will of God, it will surely come to past in due season.

2007-03-24T23:29:00.000+08:00

i want to blog, but i have no mood and don't know what to blog.. have a good weekend guys.. =)

2007-03-19T01:57:00.000+08:00

service was superb this wk, Pst Phil preached well.. these 2 days of service impacted my life.. making room for God.. and 7 ways of faith.. CCC's band is great. i like the song "But God"..

haha.. although i had about 3 hrs of slp before Sunday service, tired it may seems to be but the overwhelming joy makes my tiredness gone.. haha.. today also helped out in spelling bee marking.. some ppl can really spell.. and some ppl really can't spell..overall it was good..haha

ever since Sy Rogers' service, God has really proven to me that He is so real, when u seek Him first, He will take care of every other things in ur life.. many things happened, and God always showed to me that He is there.. really.. God is good all the time no doubt.

met my buddies to chill out later part of the night and back home about 11.. thats all for today.. God has been wonderful to me and i believe God is also good to all of you.. ^_^

2007-03-17T01:42:00.000+08:00

Today had combined cellgroup bbq.. haha.. kinda fun.. and let me tell u smthg, my cellgroup girls are powerful.. so proud of them.. they play good soccer... dun be deceive by their usual demure selves.. they can be good players too on the pitch..

We had a great time of fellowship..haha..except for a sudden intrusion by some barbarians-like ppl who just came for food and left..well, its ok...overall its great.. and Happy Birthday Raisa! haha..

Oh yes, i don't know why, but recently i am hooked to this song.. the OST of Hanakimi.. haha a very nice song indeed..

Tank: 專屬天使

2007-03-16T00:35:00.000+08:00

oh well, i am back here again.. haha.. last week, Sy Rogers service was truly fantastic.. for a long long long long time, i wept like a baby in front of the Lord... ok..not like a baby, but wept.. i have to really admit, he is one of the best preachers that i ever met. The climax was after he finished preaching and started singing.. "come Holy Spirit, fall on me now.." The presence of God just smacked right down from Heaven..tears flow down like pearls broken from a string of necklace... i really felt the love of God... thank God no one saw it.. that could be very paiseh.. haha..

it's been such a long time He ever seem so real to me... I've been in church for quite some time, to be honest with you guys, in fact there were times I felt I'm more like a professional Christian, instead of having a relationship with God...

many ppl asked me, what is the point of being in church? high commitment, etc etc.. they never know the real feeling.. the feeling of God.. its worthwhile.. a touch, an encounter.. it keeps u going.. remember guys, He is the only one who will always be there for you, in terms of good times, bad times, with or without you knowing it..from the start to the end of your life..

religious as it may seems to be, but its a relationship that no one can ever remove it..God doesn't forsake anyone of us even if we had forsaken Him.

well, after i left church, i wondered, when will it be the next time i have an encounter with Him again?

today, i went for discipleship / prayer meeting with my leader, when we were worshiping, i tell you, suddenly we sang that "Jesus loves me yes i know..", my goodness... i don't know what happen, just wept again... having an encounter with God is really good...

but i guess this time, quite paiseh.. haha.. but it feels good to be reassured by God.. haha..

2007-03-14T14:29:00.000+08:00

Been quite some time ever since i last blogged.. last week, Sy Roger's service was fantastic..really a wonderful word that impacted my life... i also watched 2 movies in the past week..the first one i watched was Pursuit of Happyness with my members and 300 was with my buddies on the previous Sunday.. both shows were great.. Pursuit of Happyness is a show which inspires people not to give up even in the toughest of all times and persevere on.. haha.. 300 is also another good show.. the boldness of the Spatans that willing to go all the way upto the point where they sacrifice their lives for their King, their lands, their wives and children..noble eh.. will i go all the way also for Christ? of cause.. haha

some people have the priority to attend church but yet they dun cherish it, while others fought for their opportunities to attend church and hang on tight to God.. is it true that things that come to you easily you won't cherish it as much as those that you fought it with your lives? quite true eh?

had a good chat with Anthony on msn these days, what he told me really enlightens me in some ways or rather.. haha.. and most all, both of us come to a conclusion... haha... Girls who are on fire for God are very attractive.. haha..

had a dinner at Vienna restaurant at Novena Square last night with my aunt and my cousins.. the quality of food seems to drop from the last time i went there.. or rather my appetite decreases? haha... i dunno why these days whenever i ate a little too much or oily, i feel very guilty after that.. and i will skip dinner the next day just to compensate my guilt.. haha.. i dunno why.. i think your mind really plays an important on what u do.. as i keep telling myself i will abstain from oily and large amount of food... sinful sinful..anyway.. its good in a way to prepare myself for ns though.. haha.. haiz.. depressing 2 years...

have been doing a lot of thinking these days..

nevermind...

that's all folks.. take care..have a good weekend ahead with Pst Phil =)

2007-03-04T15:11:00.000+08:00

after 1 wk.. my throat still hurts.. haiz.. been coughing and having blocked nose.. but its ok.. life has been not bad for me so far.. haha.. lemon flavoured strepsils soothes my throat tremendously.. ^_^ haha! =P

i wonder what will happen when i go into army.............

2007-02-26T00:53:00.000+08:00

i am sick... =( seriously sick... flu, fever, cough, sore throat, headache.. best combo.. what else can u ask for? 3hrs of sleep for 2 consecutive days and after every 3hrs of sleep is go for sports under the blazing sun.. my head is heavy... very heavy... today came back after cg, slept from 5 - 9... whole body aches and temperature shot up... crap.. where were u when i needed u? my healing~~ =(

Sun Ho - One More Moment

Don't take too long to say
I love you to the ones you love
Cause time has a habit of slipping away

And out on the clear blue sky
When lightning strikes on a sunny day
Just take me in and keep me from the rain

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Turn away to say goodbye
With each and every word that passes by
Like a distant memory

And time keeps slipping away
And time will turn to grey
And time will be the one who holds you down

And the words that seem so hard to say
Come out when you've gone away
Just stay a little while and hear me say

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment

That I want you here tonight
And I need you by my side
For just one more moment
For just one more moment with you

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

Sometimes time will treat you bad
Before you even know what's wrong
And in the end it hits you hard
Please tell me you'll be strong

2007-02-21T14:18:00.000+08:00

went to watch "Just Follow Law" the day before with my cousins, and watch "Ghost Rider" yesterday with cj, alice and her members =) i like Ghost Rider even though there are ppl who told me its boring.. haha..i think the story is not bad though.. haha.. CNY is almost officially over for me and family.. no more visitations no more ang baos already... haha.. this year harvest not very good compared to previous years though, but its ok.. the "aftermath" of CNY is tiring.. makes me feel sleepy and even more sleepy.. haha.. i just need more rest to recover it back..

2007-02-15T14:14:00.000+08:00

i am starting to feel that there are times when i am really a wooden block -__-... sianzzz

2007-02-14T16:03:00.000+08:00

It's Valentine's Day! Happy Valentine's to all my friends and all the lovers out there.. haha! what a lonesome valentine's day i had, i had nobody to celebrate with... haha.. but its okay!... i am glad i made a very nice friend recently.. thats more than anything i could ever ask for.. haha! should i go and crash the dates of my friends? haha... how about cj and alice? haha! =x

2007-02-14T15:59:00.000+08:00

i just added a new song inside my playlist which i happen to come across in my iTunes, i didn't know i have such a nice song.. would like to share with u guys.. =)

Jesse Mccartney - "Because You Live"

Staring out at the rain with a heavy heart
It's the end of the world in my mind
Then your voice pulls me back like a wake up call
I've been looking for the answer
Somewhere
I couldn't see that it was right there
But now I know what I didn't know

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

It's alright, I survived, I'm alive again
Cuz of you, made it through every storm
What is life, what's the use if you're killing time
I'm so glad I found an angel
Someone
Who was there when all my hopes fell
I wanna fly, looking in your eyes

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky
Because you live, I live

Because you live there's a reason why
I carry on when I lose the fight
I want to give what you've given me always

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has twice as many stars in the sky

Because you live and breathe
Because you make me believe in myself when nobody else can help
Because you live, girl
My world has everything I need to survive

Because you live, I live, I live

2007-02-12T14:00:00.000+08:00

haha! i am back once again.. too long nvr blog and everyone is asking me about it..these two weeks have been good for me.. =) my birthday celebrations and such.. haha..! well, lets backtrack, starting from the 2nd Feb, my class buddies had a BBQ-cum-birthday celebrations for me and one of my classmates.. haha.. cool eh.. good to have such wonderful buddies in sch but well.. gonna miss the days in SP man.. the sch isn't fun, the company is great.. haha.. my buddy, Ishan, smashed the chocolate mousse into my face and stuff it into my nostrils, disgusting, i know.. cause my face to be oily and milky, den i went to chase after him around the pool, not knowing that he will suddenly turn back, hugged me and jumped into the pool with me.. crap but fun.. haha.. after that the whole nite, my nose has that milky smell which made me wanna puke...

birthday boy and girl

the cake that my buddies bought, that Chivas is not mine..

Then on the 3rd Feb, i went for service and the cg celebrated for me my birthday and gave me a shirt =) ooo thanks... i have smthg to wear for chinese new year.. haha... then after service i had to rush home for my family celebrations... as usual, every year, my mom will prepare steamboat for the whole family to celebrate for me birthday.. i am pampered? no way.. its a custom in my family.. =) haha..

these are my cousins (from left: kuan yee, amias, celeste)

from left: kuan teng, amias, me, celeste and kuan yee)

that is our beloved aunt with the 5 cousins.. haha
kids love to do poses when they take photos -_-

On 4th Feb, i went out with my church buddies to watch the match Singapore vs Thailand and they surprised me with a watch..a "baby G"... haha.. a watch of another brand that they put inside the box of a Baby G.. but anyway thanks to them... haha

Then, on the Big Day, i went to cut and colour my hair.. probably the last time in this coming 2 years plus.. at nite went to eat steamboat at marina bay with the same group of church buddies... haha~

i also received a shirt from nette, joyce and yarui.. and a belt from raisa.. thanks girls =)

overall, i had a watch, a belt, 2 shirts and money.. thanks alot to all those who made my birthday a great one.. really appreciates it.. haha.. God has been good to me by putting good friends of quality around me.. haha.. a wonderful birthday 2007 indeed.. but i am 20 -_- aaaaarrrrrmmmmyyyyyy

oh yes, thanks to my church buddies for helping out so last min to make the v-day presents with me for my cg girls.. without them, i think me alone would not have make it possible for the presents to my cg girls.. =)

2007-02-01T00:47:00.000+08:00

hoho~, school ended for me! haha.. its a time for me to take a break and do some job before i go on a 2 year training package with SAF, haha! life has been good so far i guess... everything seems well, at least for now.. svc was great with A.R.Bernard, my greatest value in life is my value to God.. wow.. and value = purpose.. ^_^ i believe that God has a great purpose for everyone of us and we need to do our best to fulfill it..

today was great, went shopping around with alvin and rachel, den went to meet josh, chiam and van at national stadium for the soccer match between Singapore and Thailand...and of course, Singapore won... didnt know that raisa went as well as hui ying.. but we did not meet up... kinda surprised that our cg girls also like to soak in the atmosphere of a "live" soccer game... cool~... haha, through this soccer game, u can really see Singaporeans from all walks of life, regardless of race and religion, come together heart-to-heart to support our own team... this is really the "racial harmony"... cheers for own team and jeers to opposite team can be heard throughout the game and occasionally some yellings of "referee kayu", haha, overall it was good... had a good time fellowshipping there with my friends... i shall upload the photos soon..

2007-01-25T21:12:00.000+08:00

tmr last paper.. haha... shiok.. though i know some of the papers i did not do very well, but well.. its over.. looking for tmr... no more school.. army here i come~~~~ -__- in a few months time.. haha..
anyway recently i started to be attracted by these girls... i think they got the X-factor... haha.. though they look boyish but i feel they are pretty.. haha.. or maybe of the personality they act that is shown on tv... haha... like what joyce said "gentle yet rough"... lol

Myolie Wu Hang Yi (Hu Xin Er)

Chen Diya

2007-01-22T00:50:00.000+08:00

help~! tmr is the day which my final exam starts.. and friday will be the last day of paper/sch.. graduating from SP.. yeeeha~! people pray for yours truly pls.. let those have ears hear it.. i am struggling here... i cant study......................................................

2007-01-12T00:23:00.000+08:00

i am back once again =) had discipleship today, learnt about visions, goals, etc etc...

a once almost dead vision is going to be resurrected... passion will start to flow, i dunno how , i dunno when, but i will just do whatever it is needed to be done...

last week, went to msia again..bought a pair of new sneakers and catch a night in the museum there with my friends... quite a nice and funny movie though..and kinda inspiring for me... i remembered statements made by robin williams in the show..

"Great victories comes great sacrifices"

"Some are born with greatness, while others have greatness trust upon them"

these simple yet meaningful statements sent me into deep thoughts for these 2 weeks, and it kind of have some effects in me, which made me wanna do more things for the Lord and for my purpose and vision in life.

Resolutions 2007

- slim down (i'm gonna be serious about it, i hope i am.. haha)
- pursue my drums even more
- improve in drumming
- grow more spiritually
- be more sensitive to people (o.O)
- spend money wisely
- pray more!

(To Be Continued...)

2006-12-31T20:04:00.000+08:00

new year eve...and i am at home! crap... boring~... no dates no parties...

from next year onwards, i am going to go gym more often... yes gym, u didnt hear it wrong... i seriously think keeping myself in SHAPE is very important... Round is a shape rite?

2006-12-31T00:26:00.000+08:00

hi! once again i am back..today is 31st Dec 2006, last day of the year and tomorrow is a brand new year... after an "eventful" 2006, i certainly hope for a better 2007 with lesser trials and tribulations, but unlikely, as a tough test is coming up soon and it will last for 2 years =( wad a test by our govt.. anyway its where boys become men (i hope).. haha!

a brand year, a brand chapter of my life, i shall resolve all my unhappiness before i move on to 2007, i wanna start the year with a good mood with no past problems attached to it.. haha.. in this coming year, i am gonna accomplish some goals i guess(finally)... like improving in drums, shed some weight(o.o), grow more spiritually stronger, etc etc.. well i have no really plan it out yet..its time to set some goals....

today, my fren told me something when we were playing soccer in the morning. i cannot remember how come we suddenly had this conversation while running on the court, but anyway he told me that there are people who always say "i prayed about this and that, but yet God did not answer me." What he made me realised is that actually those people, who claims that they prayed about a certain issue and God did not answer them, are wrong. God did answer them! It simply means a "NO". i somehow feel it's actually quite true huh.. haha.. if the answer is a yes, i believe somehow or rather God will speak into the person's heart, and if the answer is a no, its rather obvious if they think that there are no answers from God. So, in conclusion, most of the time, no answer = No.. sad huh?

New Year Eve? What am i gonna do? no parties, no outings.. i am so lonely... all on my own.. haha~ maybe i should stay home and rest... or find some company to chill? we shall see..

2006-12-23T00:12:00.000+08:00

ok, finally here am i, after so long of "MIA-ing" from blogging,was kinda busy (lazy) to blog... and i have uploaded some random photos i took during the period of "MIA-ing"... haha...most of all Christmas is round the corner, woohoo!! jingle bells jingle bells.... tmr will be the first day of the Christmas celebration in church...hoho! i am looking forward for the fun..haha.. i hope everyone will have a wonderful Christmas this year...

Yesterday went to town for some last minute Christmas shopping..haha..bought presents for my little cousins.. and i come across this cute little "tigger" at MOS Burger Taka..haha

Our very own local up and rising star, "Tigger" Woods!!!!!!
During the week, some of the cellgroup members went over to PJ's family restaurant for a lunch, SimpleLife located at Wheelock place and that is a pic of my delicious dessert, Goreng Pisang Ice Cream... haha.. oh by the way, PJ's uncle is the owner of Fish 'n' Co, anybody wants some discount, u can approach him..haha...

sometimes, when ur members get bored with life and they wanted some stupid photos, u got to be spontaneous to entertain them once in a while.. above and bottom, a guy with a fragile heart, handle with care..LoL!

Sharon and I took it on the day before the term break commences...

i've a friend who jus doesn't understand what is the meaning of No Eating or Drinking on the MRT...

i spotted a centaur-look-alike during one of the fellowshipping trip to airport...*meh meh*

this is a pic of the Tekong's jetty, and can u spot the two rainbows? first time in my life, i see 2 rainbows together..and this pic makes me feels demoralise as i will be in there in about half a year's time.. =(

2006-12-09T01:23:00.000+08:00

i went to tekong today..to send my fren in..haha..where on earth u get paid for exercising, with food, lodging, shoes, clothes and daily necessity provided? haha..but the food tasted like crap.. wad kind vegetable u get from tekong camp man? its sour, yellowish, overcooked, "lumpy"...eew.. i wonder did they grow the vegetables there at the island... and oso wad lychee drink is that, maroon colour water with the minimal taste of lychee in it, tasted like Ice Kosong with a few droplets of lychee extract...well its a brand new chapter of my fren's life.. i guess in about 6mths time, it will be me =(

after that, went for cg, den fellowship..went back together with ernest, rainft and linette. On the journey back, ernest, rainft and I started an explicit coversation.. about "you scared pain not?", "Ni Pa Tong Ma?" LoL...wad a stupid yet entertainable topic to talk abt..and we were talking about a christmas party, with a santa's elf (posed by "someone") distributing candy canes to ppl..
den that kan tang boy, ernest make a random comment, the elf will offer candy canes, den say "Ni Pa Tong Ma?", we having bobochacha for dessert...and all burst out laughing..
To many of you reading this, you guys will never understand until u ask any one of us..haha..

ok lets have a "Ni Pa Tong Ma? Christmas Party"..hah..

in a few hours time, i am goin soccer with my frens...woohoo..fellowshipping and exercising..one stone kill two birds.. more birds more luck.. -random crap-

Phrase of the Week: Ni Pa Tong Ma?

2006-12-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

i am at chengjun's girlfriend, alice's house, using her lappy to blog..jus feeling sian today again... today chengjun invited to alice's house for fellowship instead of discipleship.. he cooked today! haha.. the food is gd.. hah! a propective househusband to be..haha... now the ppl are eating their hearts out, while me not having much appetite din eat much.. i noe its hard to believe it but its true..haha.. i guess all the sisters here are enjoying the food, from the way they eat and enjoy themselves here... i reached home today at almost 10am and sleep all the way until 4pm... went to my buddy's house overnite and had a farewell dinner last nite for my fren wendell before he go into the army tmr... tonite i will go tekong to send him to his chalet..haha.. i wonder how tekong is like.. hah

2006-12-06T01:41:00.000+08:00

In a few weeks' time, it will be Christmas... actually i always look forward for Christmas because i like the feeling of receiving presents.. haha... but over the years i realise that as you grow older, the number of presents you received seems to decline tremendously... and i mean tremendously... i wonder what will i receive this year? or perhaps nothing? anyway it's ok.. the feeling of Christmas is good enough, and Christmas is also the season for feasting... turkey, chocolate, candy cane, log cakes, hams.. yumyum.. and most of all, it is the day when the Saviour was born to save the earth from destruction..

4 Stages of Life

- You believe in Santa Claus
- You don't believe in Santa Claus
- You are Santa Claus
- You look like Santa Claus...

Hoho~

2006-12-04T00:55:00.000+08:00

i received an email from a friend and i find it kinda meaningful, so i wanna share it with you guys..

Meet new friends even if they look different to u...

Love all your friends, no matter who they are...

Friends help each other in times of need...

Friends work as a team...

Friends share...

Always be there for your friend...

Actually, after reading the email, i feel that God has placed many good friends around, i want to thank God for that, and i have to learn to cherish one another even more.. Life is short indeed.. Friends are those that cheer you for the race, true friends are those that run with you... Thank you my friends for playing a part in my life.. =)

2006-12-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

time passes very fast today.. went sch, meet friends, went cg, fellowship with members, now at home.. having a "sian" mood.. dunno why recently i am hooked to a song..
Counting Crows - Accidentally in Love.. OST of Shrek 2.. nice song..you can listen it from my blog.. haha..

So she said what's the problem baby
What's the problem I don't know
Well maybe I'm in love (love)
think about it every time
I think about it
can't stop thinking 'bout it

How much longer will it take to cure this
just to cure it cause I can't ignore it if it's love (love)
makes me wanna turn around and face me but I don't know nothing 'bout love

come on, come on
turn a little faster
come on, come on
the world will follow after
come on, come on
cause everybody's after love

So I said I'm a snowball running
running down into the spring that's coming all this love
melting under blue skies
belting out sunlight
shimmering love

Well baby I surrender
to the strawberry ice cream
never ever end of all this love
Well I didn't mean to do it
but there's no escaping your love

These lines of lightning
mean we're never alone,
never alone, no, no

Come on, Come on
move a little closer
Come on, Come on
I want to hear you whisper
Come on, Come on
settle down inside my love

Come on, come on
jump a little higher
Come on, come on
if you feel a little lighter
Come on, come on
We were once
upon a time in love

We're accidentally in love
Accidentally in love (x7)

Accidentally

I'm In Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
I'm in Love, I'm in Love,
Accidentally (X 2)

come on, come on
spin a little tighter
come on, come on
and the world's a little brighter
come on, come on
just get yourself inside her

Love ...I'm in love

2006-12-01T01:39:00.000+08:00

poly life is gonna end soon, next phase of my life is gonna be army..what's after army? still undecided..going to take this 2 good years to plan..work?study?music? before this fun-filled poly life ends, we, the khakis decided to take some photos for memories..haha..

sch wun be fun without this group of frens..from left to right: chng, taff, ishan, kel and me.. a rather stupid pic anyway.. LoL..definitely not a boyband-wanna-be.. lol

i am sure we were not looking at girls..

as usual, our lunch time is always without taff, he has to report to his Sergeant Elaine for some extra "sai-kang"... =X poor taff...we will always miss those days when the 5 of us hang out as a group..only 5...dun give me a package of 1 plus 1... haha

thats me and chng (boss)..hah

oh! thats auntie karen and taitai belle...

karen and yours truly...

thats isabella with me..

kel, karen, belle and me..

thats sugardaddy with his girls.. LoL

thats me with shanshan.

2006-12-01T01:13:00.000+08:00

went for medical check up at CMPB, sian man..spend like almost 3hrs there..den went for clement's play..quite a nice production..entertaining..hah

24 more days to Christmas..haha i love Christmas..its fun man..hah..presents and more presents i hope..i jus simply love receiving presents..*arhem*..haha..hope this year will be a good Christmas..before i go in to join the Band of Brothers..

yesterday went to marina bay for steamboat as part of wendell's farewell dinner before he is going to be enlisted :( part of it only, coz i supposed he is going to have a few more farewell meals with us..haha

steamboat at marina...

thats Lai, Wen and Alvin..Cameraman = me..haha

2006-11-29T00:27:00.000+08:00

gym-ing aint fun...work out for 1 day, pain 2 days..try it guys -_-

2006-11-29T00:03:00.000+08:00

oh well...i highlighted my hair today..red..and it isnt that bright...ok nvm..wad is done is done..stop complaining..and also i dun resemble anyone pls..thank you..to be thankful i shorten my hair once more.. -_-! this time is really wad u call S H O R T... but nvm, i think the money is well spent, 25 for highlight, cut and treatment..not bad eh..although the colour not that bright, perhaps i chose wrong colour, we will do it again in the future..probably two years plus from now..in around 6months plus time, i am going botak already..so no point...i have plenty of nice photos to upload and show u guys, but not today, no time..

good nights,
non-bright red head

2006-11-24T03:29:00.000+08:00

sian...today mood isn't too good..just doesn't feel right..even going for a play "Frankenstein" at raffles hotel doesn't help much...

good night..

2006-11-23T00:55:00.000+08:00

hmm..wad a tiring day it is, went out at nite with my buddies, jus reached home not long ago..haha..let me say smthg i wanna say to my dear bro who mistaken me for having feelings for a girl who is my best buddy's sis..oh goodness gracious me, why my dear bro keep saying that? LoL..i jus merely says that my best buddy's sis is pretty..and indeed she is wad..that doesnt mean i have feelings for her..i dun even know her! LoL..well oh well..i jus take it as a joke..hah..sometimes its gd in a way u laugh at urself how ppl make fun of u..i mean, its fun, isn't it?haha..take it easy bro..friends get together are meant to have fun..and the bottomline is i dun even know her..lol..so dun bother asking me whether is it a fact..it is jus crappppppp...

2006-11-21T00:06:00.000+08:00

haha, today i went to town for a walk with my cg members and cut my hair, i came across this..cool eh...indeed for where your treasure is, there your heart will be also..this is one of my fav verse..haha

look at the before and after difference, after all the pressure from ppl around me..haha...my precioussssss is shorten...oh well, this hairdo is kinda weird..probably not used to it...and its maintenance is not cheap...

joyce and i went to a salon for a haircut while nette and sa were playing with the boss's cute little puppy, it keeps running around in the salon or rather lazing around..haha..the puppy is cute indeed..but look at linette..she was squeezing it in the photo..oh man..poor puppy.. >.< another one here..raisa tried to take photo with the puppy, but the puppy seems uninterested..lol..

2006-11-19T17:15:00.000+08:00

yesterday svc was gd, blessings of God, taking responsibilities of your life, ultimate security etc etc..it impacted me deeply. especially on the ultimate security. perhaps i really doesnt have that in the past, and hope to attain it in the coming days.

even though, svc was great, but i still feel angry?frustrated?weird? (duno how to describe)..jus uncomfortable feeling about myself.. i realise smthg, ppl in the cg has a very wrong impression of me.. i maybe one in the past, i maybe one in ur mind, but i am sure i am not one right now... how to put to words..the feeling was jus pure uncomfortable and irritating? oh well.. wad is over is over.. let those have ears hear..let those have eyes see.. i know the fact that a person's impression in one's mind is set in the first few minutes of conversation, but why are ppl limiting that to their mind? can't a person change? ...oh perhaps i am reaping what i have sown? like one of my fellow members always says (shall not disclose names again) "What you sow, you shall reap!" but she meant it the other way, not the good stuff i have sown..sounds like retribution or smthg...well oh well..thats life indeed. i suppose changing ppl's impression is just too hard...i am beginning to feel tired...am i suppose to fight against principalities and powers? hah..

2006-11-18T01:35:00.000+08:00

With buddies like these, who needs girlfriend? LoL!

How lovely! Sch would be boring without these people..lol

Went to lunch at BotakJones Clementi with my buddies..lol..Food Name: You Crazy What!, Price: 11.50, Outcome: Can't finish..food is quite gd..but just too much..lol

2006-11-18T00:33:00.000+08:00

hoho! i am back, exams over! a great feeling man..haha..and also a wonder cg meeting today.. feeling happy too..haha...

hmm, what should i talk about? how about music preferences? hah

i personally love music, i love drumming (duh, my blog -_-), hah, i believe that a good piece of music can be a remedy to a bad day, i personally love those love songs, sentimentals, oldies ;), rock, and some pleasant ballads..haha..these songs keep me accompany when i am feeling down..but i dunno why recently i'm kinda into mandopop, haha, its like how many thousands of years ago when i last into mandopop..lol, but well, whether eng, mando, or wadever song, a nice song = a nice song, but i still like the song Right Here Waiting by Clay Aiken, its very nice, an old song sing in a "new school" style..and also my all-time favourite, She'll be loved - Maroon 5..haha..i added She'll be loved and also a nice song by Counting Crows - Accidentally in Love

2006-11-13T14:55:00.002+08:00

life isnt good these days for me.. problems after problems, when is it gonna end? is it just me? am i the problem maker or the problem solver? it makes me wonders....

Is it true that ignorance is bliss? If it is, i think i will rather be one like that... sometimes i feel that MYOB* is good, very good, what is the point in submerging urself in the problems of others when u alone fail to solve ur own...well..nvm...this wk is my exam wk, i can't care much what is around me, let me finish this wk and see how...

last wk, one of my dearest cg member told me something (i shall not disclose any names), she made a statement to me, "a person whose rating is of 10 will attract another person whose rating is of 10 as well, a person whose rating is of 1 will attract another person whose rating is of 1." To be honest, i totally agrees to what she says, she made a right point there. Fantastic, but on the other hand, she sends me into some deep thoughts, if that works out to be the way, should it means that if a person attracts noone, he/she has a rating of big fat zero?...hmm... tag your comments, open up my mind about this...

ps: MYOB* = Mind Your Own Business

2006-11-11T03:43:00.000+08:00

today's word was great. To be a good finisher, i realise i have started many races and din manage to finish it. I've decided that i am going back to the races which i started and finished it. Its gonna be tough, its gonna be stressful, nevertheless i will take the step of faith to do so. I hope i will finish it beautifully...=)

2006-11-10T04:55:00.000+08:00

another tiring day..assignments, project, study...so many things to do... i did some of my assignments and left with 1 or 2 more, and i have to finish up my project soon and got to study to prepare for my exams next wk.. this is gonna be so tiring..

Went for discipleship earlier on, and we were talking about breaking our fallow grounds, having the right attitude towards God. I realise it is very true, many of us fail to break our fallow grounds. Our hearts have to be broken before Him, but many of us fail to do so. There are times when we know that we have to do something, but end up we did not do it, mainly because of the attitude in us which stop us from doing it. I think its partially fear of failure that sets into our hearts which stop us from doing the things of the Lord. We have to break our own will and do according to His will. Say is easy, doing it is not. Nevertheless, i will give it a try...

Recently, i have been thinking about my life, planning ahead of what am i going to do for the next few years. When come to thinking about my life now, i realise that i have tall and huge emotional walls around me. On the outside, i appear to be fine and such, but deep down inside, i feel that there are actually alot of problems. I find it hard to relate to people when talking about serious stuff concerning my life, not that i doesn't want to share, but i don't know how to. i jus simply find it so hard. I would jus suppress it down and let it go. I know its not the right way to do so, but at least that's the easier way out for me. Even if i share problems with people, i make sure whatever i share is being filtered first, mainly due to past bad experiences. Feeling for being framed/"sabo-ed"/misunderstood is never good. I have to be on guard on the words i say to people. I think i have emotional walls built around me, partially got to do with my upbringing.

Since young, my performance in sch is constantly compared with other ppl. Come to think of it, i really had no life during those days, its always study, tuition, tv, study, tuition, tv. No life indeed. Although things started to change after i went into sec sch, pressure on studies drop tremendously until such a point where my results were not good. Even though those comparing days are over, it somehow left a scar in heart, which made me feel inferior to those who does things better than me. Low self esteem sets in immediately. Constantly, questions pop out in my mind. "Am i not good enough?", "Why it is always me?", "It always my fault". These questions were tormenting, making me a person of low self confidence. But there's nothing much i could do, just to put a smile on the face and smile it off. I jus simply doesnt know how to be a person of self considence. I have confidence in others but hardly in myself. I don't know why. All these just leads to me building emotional walls around me. I want to break these walls and am trying to break it, but at a very slow pace. It is not easy for me...

2006-11-09T05:30:00.000+08:00

this is just so tiring..530am..i just finish some of my research and assignments...and many more to go...i cant take it..everyday is like this..i need my sleep...i am too tired to blog today..i shall blog tonite..the end.. zZz

2006-11-08T03:52:00.000+08:00

woah..another late night for me...schwork seems to be nvr ending even when i am having my study break before my exams...what is this man? we students paid money for the lecturers to drive big cars, and we students work hard day and nite (i am sure we do), jus to achieve a cert, dip, deg, etc. i sitting in front of my comp doing work (plus a little of gaming and blogging here and there), but still i am WORKING...but lets get realistic in the society of S'pore, u need a dip, deg to get u a gd paying job(give more to building fund, haha)...so...lets WORK HARD!!!
sorry ppl for the crap i typed. i am just bored...shld i write a story or talk about philosophies??
hmm, lets just talk abt a simple yet complexed topic..
What is your purpose in life????
High flyer, drive big cars, own 5Cs, get married, have kids,~~get a mistress somewhere in kuku island~~, retired and die? Are these consider a purposeful life for u? For me, perhaps not..i wanna lead a colourful life..a life which can be of an influence to the society out there and glorify the King..i wanna be a musician, yet working in the marketplace..i know it seems tough and unachievable, nevertheless, all things are possible with God..jus imagine, "a marketplace influencer" by day, a musician by night, cool eh..earn big bucks, glorify God, impact lives,haha..i think that is my purpose in life, my ultimate goal. A goal that seems so far but yet i have faith in God that it can be achieve..i dun know how, i dun know when, i just know that God will make it happen...who knows? 5 years down the road, i might be in BBG and serving in the music ministry..haha! how wonderful can that be?
How about you today? yes you! the one reading this, what is your purpose in life? if u still uncertain about it, its time to seek God for it, if u know ur purpose in life, start moving towards it.. ;) the path to ur purpose in life maybe tough, it does not come easy, it will not come easy, but God is always there with us...press on....=)

in the beginning...

2006-11-07T03:02:00.000+08:00

woah~ this is my first ever humble blog..spending hours jus to design a blog...not easy man..everytime look at others, blogging here blogging there, seems fun, i also decided to have one for myself..haha..today marks my first step towards blogging the neverending thoughts from my mind..by the way, i've put some of my favourite songs in this blog which i would like to share with some of you..enjoy it =)
well..thats all for today folks..im getting too tired...shall continue tmr...gdnitez